Discussion in 'Society and Culture' started by ethics, Jun 19, 2017.
From The Players Tribune,
Dark, Dark, Dark, Dark, Dark, Dark, Dark, Dark | The Players' Tribune
Wow. I didn't know OCD went that way. The Players Tribune has some interesting articles. Here's one by Ryan Leaf that I learned of via an AMA on reddit.
An amazing and very educational read! I, too, have tended to think of the hand-washing folks when this affliction is mentioned. Sometimes I felt like I was living in his head!
I found and joined this place 13 years ago. for about 5 years before that day, and every day since, I fight a fight very similar.
I keep a video on my iPad to give people a glimpse of what I think about daily.
It's an interrogation room, where a suspect is brought in and sat down. He is suspected of shooting a police officer. The suspect is calm and compliant. The officer escorting him walks out of the room to get him a bottle of water before beginning the questioning.
While the officer is out of the room, the suspect pulls a handgun hidden in his waistband and shoots himself in the head.
Every day, I have an intense image of putting the muzzle of a handgun to the side of my head, just above and behind my right ear and pulling the trigger. On the worse days, I can feel the muzzle on my skin.
Do I want to do this? No. Do I need to do this? No. Am I ever going to do this? I hope not. Even though I'm an Endowment member of the NRA, I do not and cannot own a firearm ever again. If I could, I would not because of that 0.00001% chance, that moment of weakness when that thought is running rampant in my mind.
What keeps me going is the thought of the pain I would put my family through.
A powerful story. One exceptionally well told because of the very eloquent but extreme concise and yet simplistic style of the writing.